Monday, June 29, 2009

Which one of these blog posts doesn't belong?

I'll give you a hint... it's this one.

Normally I blog about lovely random things that I hear on the news, or that pop into my head in conversation. This blog is about emotions, specifically, mine. I will probably cringe at this tomorrow morning (if not sooner), and delete it. However, at the moment, I feel like writing it out. I think it may give me some clarity, because at the present, things are a jumble, like when you have long hair and you sleep with it down, and then wake up in the morning with impossible knots.

Anyway, do you ever feel as if you need a completely objective observer to step into your head and sort things out for you? By things, I mean how you feel. When I said inside of my head, I really mean inside of my head. If you were watching this from the outside, you would be of no help. You'd need to know exactly what I was/am thinking, which even I don't know. Grrrr. Having a god would be so handy right now, especially an Old Testament kinda god, who talks back and sends fiery chariots and such. I don't feel like catching a bus today... god, can you send me a flaming chariot? Thanks a bunch!

Anyways AGAIN, I need something that sorts thoughts. A thought sorter. Try saying that 10 times, really fast!

I seem to be feeling a lot of things at once, which seem to be conflicting with each other, leaving me with absolutely no idea how I actually feel, or why. The stress I have at the moment (thanks, exams!) is doing nothing to help the situation, it's acting like a catalyst of sorts. I have a feeling that if I was a "good person", I would know what is the "right" thing to do, and I wouldn't be obsessing over the things I am obsessing over.

Anyway, the whole thing is rather vexing. Irksome. Perplexing. Stressing. Whatever. I think I'm doing a fairly good job of remaining cheerful and regular, but it is quite a bit more difficult than usual.

This didn't really help much at all.

2 comments:

Jonno_FTW said...

i read that with your voice in my head

A strange, terrible group of horses said...

HAHAHA

lots of people say that about my blogs. Mainly you and Laura. Only you and Laura. Lots = you and Laura.

:P